Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Empathy for a person who claims to have none?

Yes, it's possible. The person isn't capital-E evil; just damaged by life. That said, part of the damage appears to be a lack of empathy for others, without even trying to learn whether their own backgrounds are as damaged/damaging as his/hers. In other words, not wanting to try to be empathetic.

It would be easy to be unempathetic for this person; besides her/his own lack of outreach, is a sometimes brusque personality, that is itself part of the larger picture.

But, this person isn't capital-E evil and has redeeming qualities, in potential as well as actuality, of emotion, intellect and psyche.

That also said, this person is a full decade older than me. How "reachable" he/she is, even by mental health professionals, I have no idea.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Dreaming of various things...

I don't know whether I'm having more memorable dreams recently because the mix of a mini-dose of Celexa plus OTC amino acids is kicking in enough now, whether it's mental on my side without the help, a bit of both, or what. I do think my anxiety at my current job and location in O-dessa, Texas, have peaked.

That said, I had a pretty memorable dream about running up and down various floors in the inside of an older New York City skyscraper, like the Empire State Building or maybe the Chrysler Building. At the very end of the dream, I ran into my dad, who did not come off as accusatory or judgmental.

I think this is about general life worries. Am I chasing up and down blind alleys, like I ran into on some stairwells inside the bowls of the building? Does my life in general seem bland or blank? Am I wanting dad to make a decision for me? Give me guidance he never really did?