Emotional ups and downs

OK, two "downs" today as I prepare for my new job to become permanent.

One, in discussion with the interim publisher here, I thought she had planned to be taking the first full workweek of August for vacation herself. Well, it's actually the second half of that week and the first half of the second week. She still sounds OK w/me taking off. But, still, a bit of a jolt.

Two, was getting the gas turned on today at my rent house. I now realize it is indeed a bit smaller than my current apartment. I can "make it fit," but it's going to be tight. It's smaller than my last few apartments, at least a bit.

I guess I just still don't fully realize that a job quasi-loss, followed by two changes of target in my new job location (plus reading that, last year, the newspaper biz had its biggest contraction since 2007 or so), and my sister-in-law's death, are all coming together to hit me.

Repeatedly.

I'll stay sober.

But, good fucking doorknobs, this will be a fun ride for the next couple of months.