Anger .... why do I want to deny it?

I didn't get a job I was hoping to get.

And, here's why, if I try to put numbers on it.

Overall, my estimate is that is was about 40 percent no "fault" anywhere, 40 percent age discrimination, even if primarily unintentional or subconscious, and 20 percent bad interviewing. I felt a good rapport with my interviewer. But, as noted, "social media" is at the top 1/4 of the first page of my resume. And, I was never asked detailed questions about social media; in fact, I don't recall really being asked at all about it. Some, something, somehow, is kind of rotten in the state of Austin. 

And, yet, I'm trying to defend an interviewer who seemed like a "good guy," while the numbers say that it was more than 50 percent his fault that I didn't get the job. 

And, I want to say that I was shown courtesies during the interview process. At the same time, I've been shown courtesies during other interview processes that were even more "formulaic," at best.

So, I am not ready to deny my  anger, tamp it down, or mingle it with other emotions to subsume it under "frustration." 

NO, I'm angry.

I think I was somewhat mistreated in a job interview. I think I was likely the best candidate for the position. And, I wasn't given the full opportunity to show that, in my opinion.

And, part of the somewhat mistreated, even with the courtesies, feels like I was "used" a bit. I may be at a point in my life in general and recovery life in particular where I'm sensitive, even a bit over-sensitive, to that. But, that's better than not recognizing that I've been used until 6 months, or 6 years, after the fact.

I have a right to be angry about something like that. And I shouldn't hide that from anyone, above all not from myself.